Wednesday, February 01, 2006
woohoo!! cant believe my thumbdrive still there!! tot i reali lost it le.. THANK YOU GOD!! i muz not be so careless le..muz check next time b4 i leave lap.. haha..but act i do check de neh..but mayb cos tt day play game..den 4got abt it..sigh..typical mi..!! cant believe i haven grew out of my carelessness..since pri sch sia..!! o my goodness.. haix.. muz grow up liao sia..
cny was wat i expected ba..sianx sianx n sianx..but of cos not as sianx as my parents cos they muz give money..haha..but den again..i suddenly felt so lonely nor..esp on 1st day.. it was like not even ah kuang or meiling talk 2 mi.. haha..but meiling n mi dun noe wat 2 talk de.. onli in msn..haix.. oh well.. anyway mi n cousins nv had a common topic.. till ah kuang got gf.. haha..den got rs prob den talk de ba.. oh well.. expected..haix.. i was on e verge of tears tt day sia reali veri upset.. but wat 2 do? haix.. cry oso like tt.. juz 2 vent the mixture...
but yest, 3rd day of new yr, he came.. Poh Eng, Beeting, Hwee suppose 2 come de.. but Beeting last min not well.. den both dun wan 2 go le.. haix.. i was reali upset sia.. reali veri affected.. always my frdx cancel out on mi..when i find them they not free..they find mi..i not free.. mayb tt's y when can finally go out..he ask mi to meet him i reject..haix..den he will angry.. but i hardly go out wif frdx..hardly haf frdx.. haix.. reali........
but im glad he didnt cancel out on mi.. haha.. but den ok la..much e same as last yr.. haix.. shan't talk it out le ba.. tired.. hurt..
but b4 he left we played 2 game of stress.. haha.. though he won mi, im still happy.. haha.. so fun sia..!! haha.. finally a game tt we can challenge yet he dun give in 2 mi.. haha.. last time when play his card games he always give in 2 mi.. i noe de.. cos he more pro den mi ma.. haha.. muacks..!!
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its been 1yr since i told them.. time flies.. haix.. though i grow up.. i'll always b their lil girl.. i dun mind being their lil girl.. but.. i wan respect for my beliefs n decision.. in dis decision.. even if i do regret 1 day... its part of growing up ba.. i'll take it as a lesson.. but in 2 deep in le.. 2 deep 2 deep.. mayb im obessed.. but his smiles, laughter, hurt or even pain affects mi.. hu will side mi? even if frdx say they r on my side n comfort mi..but i still feel alone....... haix..
wei yi..!! i love you!! sorry i hurt u again n again.. sis foreva..!!
i miss all my frdx..even though i dun haf close frdx le.. i wish them well in e comin yr..!!
i love my fam.! though...
i love him..!!
thinking of you @ 8:17 AM